When you lose, You win.

.. Haaaay. honestly, nahihirapan ako. its really depressing. i dunno. its just that some things are hard to understand and you can't just go with the flow. kaasar. I felt worthless and parang ang hirap hirap lang talaga. I don't need anyone to understand me cos I can't even understand myself. Bakit kasi kailangang maging ganito pa. haaaaaaaay! argh! :( im being avoidant nowadays. hindi ako nag-oonline because I avoid other people. well, its a big adjustment cos ive been online all my life. and the thing is I don't understand why things just won't go back to normal at the end of the hour.

I was in a panic state a while ago. Cos I really had a bad dream. I mean, I don't know if its just a dream.. but I cried (in my dreams and I woke up wiping my very wet eyes) I've had so much about it. ayoko na! Sana dream lang talaga yun! Cos if that thing will ever happen again, I dunno what I'll do next. why do I have to suffer for some to be happy? I didn't do anything wrong. im trying to focus but i can't.. I just can't.. ano ba? Parang hindi ako normal. something is really wrong! and I knew it. And im having a hard time to smile and laugh nowadays. I can't seem to find my happiness. I need a quiet and peaceful time to think & talk with Our Father. I know He'll help me deal with it.

and All I really want is someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be alright.


A terror attack!

My gahd. Glorietta was bombed yesterday. f*ck it! im planning to go there pa naman this coming week. This is very saddening. Glorietta is my second home and my favorite mall (I should say that!) :) ..Because I can walk there alone, eat, find every single item i want but I easily get tired cos I really cannot have a nice picture of it on my mind. in short, hindi ko siya ma-memorize! (bakit kaya?) and iloveit since im from the south.

Christmas time in the city.. why does it have to be like this?




Pagod.

im tiiiiired. :) but whatever.
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Clearing my throat..

Last friday, I edited my Profile. I think I wrote it well.. Actually, I had to erase some things about me because the character (2000 or more char., i think?) was not enough to describe my very own self. mygosh. as if! as if someone would care to read it. anywaaay. My profile was super boring that's why I decided to make something worth reading for. Is it? Yaaay! Changes! I realized that I have grown. :)

--While browsing my multi page.. I noticed a link. actually, matagal na siyang nag-vview. and almost all of my photos, na-view niya na in my multiply. I think its kinda scary cos he/she is using my previous blog photo. ohh. whoever you are.. you're super annoying lang talaga! its not funny at all. I can't call him/her a poser. poser ba siya? whatduyathiiink? Haha. I mean, Im not a celebrity naman para kopyahin o gayahin ang identity. hindi naman ako sikat. hindi naman ako maganda. normal na tao lang naman ako.. Now I understand why my friends Aris and Abbie super hate their posers. Lalo na pag ginaya kung ano man ang sinulat mo.. ibang klase na yun. and the weird thing is.. 3 sila. ano bang mapapala niyo sakin ha? haaay.. stop it okay? so, nakita ko yung mga links.. and I clicked them. and ito yung isa: My stolen pictures

"Wont have it any other way. It doesn't matter much to me. Contacts only" --Parang kilala ko kung sino gumawa nyan ah?

May God Bless you.. whoever you are!


I know its only rock and roll but I like it.

A new beginning.


"Now that things have calmed down,

step out of yourself and discover new beginnings."



Chrismukkah: 81 more days to go.

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