The Rules for Being Human


1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for the entire period this time around.
2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a fulltime informal school called life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.
3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial and error, experimentation. The `failed` experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately works.
4. A lesson is repeated until learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5. Learning lessons does not end. There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive there are lessons to be learned.
6. `There` is no better than `here.` When your `there` has become a `here` you will simply obtain another `there` that will again look better than `here.`
7. Others are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9. Your answers lie inside you. The answer to life`s questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10. This will often be forgotten, only to be remembered again.


Gone are the old ways


7 days unlimited

The week is Hell!

argh. badtrip. 7days kami may class. starting this october upto march.

there are 7 meanings sa salitang pitong araw.

UNA - BADTRIP. kasi no more sleep tight. haha. malamang badtrip kasi nga kulang sa tulog and all then hafta wake up early (sunday pa!) can you imagine? waaaah. EXHAUSTION. shiit.

PANGALAWA - No more family day. as if may family day. haaaay. i won`t be able to eat my lunch with them. pag sundays kasi dapat busog kasi my lolo makes it a point na i-prepare kung anong dapat namin i-ulam. gonna miss it. nakakasaaad :(( mamimis nila ako pag sundays or even saturdays coz im planning to sleep over at tin`s pad every sat evening coz her place is like 15mins away from espana. so, less traffic and less pagod. hehe

IKATLO - No more social life. i usually hang out on saturdays but since ganito na nga yung arrangement ko, i guess hindi na kami makakapag-bonding ng mga kabarkada ko :(( well, kahit naman before pa, wala na talagang time then now sobrang literal na WALANG ORASAN. waaaah. imissyall.

IKAAPAT - nakakapagod. nakakasabaw. kailangan na mag stresstabs. kung tulog ang solusyon, pwes magtiis hanggang marso. ano na kaya ichura ng eyebags ko pag dating ng june?

IKALIMA - katakawan. ewan ko nga ba, ang lakas ko kumain. but i guess, tama lang to para may pambawi naman.

IKAANIM - No more dvd marathon. waaaah :(( thank God nakatapos din ako ng 2 series. haaay. achievement na yun for me since hindi talaga ako nakaka-abot ng kahit anong tv series. ewan. sobrang loser ko talaga.

IKAPITO - Just Pray. Go to mass.


SURVEYEHEY!

here we go again. highlight the statements which applies to you.

Bought everyone in the bar a drink
Swam with wild dolphins
Climbed a mountain
Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
Been inside the Great Pyramid
Held a tarantula -kadiri!
Taken a candlelit bath with someone
Said 'I love you' and meant it - ofcourse. i used to..
Hugged a tree
Bungee jumped
Visited Paris -someday..
Watched a lightning storm at sea
Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise. -many times na. kila yen and dvd marathon til 7am. haha!
Seen the Northern Lights
Gone to a huge sports game - UAAP/PBA
Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa - Want! want!
Grown and eaten your own vegetables
Touched an iceberg
Slept under the stars - hmmm.. 7 years ago ata with my cousins sa rooftop. then had fever after that stargazing blahblah..
Changed a baby's diaper - i missed this
Taken a trip in a hot air balloon -waaaant!
Watched a meteor shower yup! while walking in tomas
Gotten drunk on champagne
Given more than you can afford to charity
Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
Had a food fight
Bet on a winning horse
Asked out a stranger
Had a snowball fight
Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
Held a lamb
Seen a total eclipse -oo. yehey!
Ridden a roller coaster - of course! pero sobrang sapilitan lang kasi im scared.
Hit a home run
Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking - madaming times.
Adopted an accent for an entire day
Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
Had two hard drives for your computer
Visited all 50 states
Taken care of someone who was drunk - Oo. sobra malasing yung mga kabarkada ko. laging ako yung taga-salo ng everything. even tagay. salo ng tagay tapos salo ng tao pa kasi gumegewang na. haha! ano, kaya pa?
Have amazing friends - of course. :)
Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
Watched wild whales
Stolen a sign
Backpacked in Europe
Taken a road-trip - madaming beses.
Gone rock climbing - wall climbing lang eh.
Midnight walk on the beach - Oo.
Gone sky diving
Visited Ireland
Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love -
In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
Visited Japan - Want!
Milked a cow
Alphabetized your CDs -
Pretended to be a superhero
Sung karaoke - hahaha. kanta tayooo!
Lounged around in bed all day -masarap matulog!
Posed nude in front of strangers
Gone scuba diving
Kissed in the rain
Played in the mud
Played in the rain - can't remember when was the last time pero that playing in the rain is soo much fun.
Gone to a drive-in theater
Visited the Great Wall of China
Started a business -business for fun lang with my cousins.
Fallen in love and not had your heart broken -
Toured ancient sites -
Taken a martial arts class - Arnis?
Played DVD for more than 6 hours straight - shit! 17hours.. dvd marathon!
Gotten married
Been in a movie
Crashed a party
Gotten divorced
Gone without food for 5 days
Made cookies from scratch -oatmeal cookie.
Won first prize in a costume contest
Ridden a gondola in Venice -Want! want!
Gotten a tattoo
Rafted the Snake River
Been on television news programs as an "expert"
Got flowers for no reason -
Performed on stage - pwede bang dramatization? hehe
Been to Las Vegas
Recorded music - yesss! once pa lang.
Eaten shark -
Had a one-night stand
Gone to Thailand
Bought a house - sa monopoly. haha!
Been in a combat zone
Buried one/both of your parents
Been on a cruise ship
Spoken more than one language fluently - english, tagalog and spanish
Performed in Rocky Horror
Raised children - in the future
Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
Had plastic surgery
Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
Wrote articles for a large publication
Lost over 100 pounds
Held someone while they were having a flashback
Piloted an airplane
Petted a stingray
Broken someone`s heart
Helped an animal give birth
Won money on a T.V. game show
Broken a bone -dislocate lang naman.
Gone on an African photo safari
Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
Ridden a horse - yes. stupid horse riding in qc. hehe.
Had major surgery
Had a snake as a pet
Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
Visited all 7 continents
Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
Eaten kangaroo meat
Eaten sushi
Had your picture in the newspaper
Changed someone`s mind about something you care deeply about
Gone back to school -
Petted a cockroach
Eaten fried green tomatoes
Read The Iliad mythology in highschool.
Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
Killed and prepared an animal for eating
Skipped all your school reunions
Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
Been elected to public office
Written your own computer language
Thought to yourself that you`re living your dream -minsan.
Had to put someone you love into hospice care
Built your own PC from parts
Sold your own artwork to someone who didn`t know you
Had a booth at a street fair
Dyed your hair -never.
Been a DJ
Shaved your head
Caused a car accident
Saved someone`s life


ill be leaving VERY soon.


Dim of the soft lights

the night is so calm and dull.. what the heck, im SO busy and stressed. :(


We have something to believe in again

It seems to me that if you or I must choose between two courses of thought or action, we should remember our dying and try so to live that our death brings no pleasure on the world. -John Steinbeck

At this moment, there are six billion, four hundred seventy million, eight hundred eighteen thousand, six hundred seventy one people in the world. Some.. are running scared. Some.. are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, -six billion souls And sometimes.. All you need is one. -oth.

Every song has a coda, a final movement, whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends.. but is that a reason not to enjoy the the music?

Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred? How did it find us?
Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war; hoping for their safe return. But knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?

The important thing is; not to be bitter over life`s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past.And recognise that every day,… won’t be sunny. But when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair.. Remember, it`s only in the black of night that you can see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So, don`t be afraid to make mistakes. To stumble and fall. Coz, most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most.

Maybe you`ll get everything you wish for.. Maybe, you`ll get more than you ever could`ve imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long, and in the end, the journey is the destination.

When you pick the guy you really gonna be with forever, make sure he`s someone who respects you, and treats you well, and he`s someone who makes your heart burst even just at the sight of him; someone who you will love because of what he is and not what he does. Use your head and follow your heart.

1 of the 30 reasons why you shouldn`t get out of bed: if you go out, you might meet someone interesting, you might fall in love. If you fall inlove, you will suffer. Don`t suffer. Stay in bed. - Jessica Zafra


Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength,
pleads no excuse of impossibility.. It is therefore able to undertake all things, and it completes many things, and warrants them to take effect, where he who does not love would faint and lie down. Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.
Though weary, it is not tired; though pressed, it is not straitened; though alarmed, it is not confounded. - Thomas A. Kempis

Who knows where the road will lead us. Only a fool would say, But if you let me love you I`m sure to love you all the way. - From the song `All The Way (by Frank Sinatra)

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive, where every sense is heightened, and every emotion is magnified. Our everyday reality is shattered and we are flung into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon, but that doesn`t diminish its value, because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives. - `The Mirror Has Two Faces`

All men who have achieved great things have been great dreamers. - Orison Swett Marden

You are never given a wish without being given the power to make it come true. - From the book "Bridge Across Forever" (by Richard Bach)

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. - Eleanor Roosevelt

It is a good viewpoint to see the world as a dream. When you have something like a nightmare, you will wake up and tell yourself that it was only a dream. It is said that the world we live in is not a bit different from this. -Yamamoto Tsunemoto

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worth while. So when you are lonely, remember it`s true.. Somebody somewhere is thinking of you. - K. Blackburn

The only place where dreams are impossible is in your own mind.- Emalie

If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were. -Anonymous

Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit. -Kahlil Gibran

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get--only with what you are expecting to give--which is everything. -Katharine Hepburn

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage -Lao tzu

At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet -Plato

O Romeo, Romeo! wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father and refuse thy name; Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love.. Tis but thy name that is my enemy; What`s in a name? that which we call a rose ..By any other name would smell as sweet -William Shakespeare

Nunc scio quit sit amor.
(Now I know what love is.) -Virgil

Don`t look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone. Don`t be troubled about the future for it is yet to come. Live in the present and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering -one tree hill

Mama always said life was like a box a chocolates, never know what you're gonna get. -Forrest Gump

If you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud, or the moment just... passes you by. -My Bestfriend`s wedding

the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return -Moulin Rouge

Love is a smoke made with fume of sighs. Being purged a fire sparkling in lover`s eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lover`s tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet., a choking gall and preserving sweet. -William Shakespeare

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. -Nietzche


RIOOOOT. woot-woot!

yesterday.. oh, yesterday. super funny daaaay. As in. :-D
wala lang, i must admit na malas ako yesterday. Happy birthday pumpkin meh. we had a defense for our thesis and i didn`t have a formal or corporate attire so i came up with a polo shirt. i felt kinda stupid and hell, im unique. everyone na makasalubong ko asked why i was a wearing polo shirt. haha. ran errands with my groupmates and had to type some corrections and photocopied it.

i lost the heel of my shoe. yung isa lang kaya nga shoe. haha. altered comfort related to lost of heel secondary to thesis defense. o diba, i thought of removing the other one. pero di na, ayos lang. but i don`t know where the `lost heel` went. if you`re missing come back home. okay?

haaay. so, yun. i was walking like a stupid ass. kasi nga hindi pantay. haha. tapos 9pm na natapos yung thesis defense. we`re the last group to present. yehey.

5pm, tapos na sila pumpkin donna with their defense. she waited for me and listened to Haley the whole time. :-D ganda, grabe! ilovehales. ♥ after four hours, haaay.. nakahinga na rin ng maluwag.

but while walking.. 9pm walk. saya! masaya na sana with my broken shoe and all. ofcourse, nasa huli kami ni pumpkin kasi mabagal talaga kami maglakad. there`s this group of guys who were like running from behind us. nagpanic naman kami ni pumpkin because all our friends were like miles away from us na. haha so i shouted their namessss. Help! Help! we`re in trouble. haha nakakatawa. so much for panicking. :-D a minute later, nasa gitna na kami ng RIOT of 2 different gang/Frat/kung ano man yun. basta, WAR sila. may gun pa. ayos. malas talaga tong araw na to. we didn`t know what to do kaya tumakbo na lang kami to the nearest resto. haha. at least may guard dun pero hindi naman niya inaawat. nakakatakot.. grabe. para kaming mga na-trauma. thank God, Bull save our lives. hanggang sa car hindi kami makapagsalita afterwards. waaaah.

so, sarado pa pala ang tomas for street party. we went to eastwood with pumpkin and some of her friends (rona and lom) to eat. hindi pala ako naglunch., thanks Lom for the pizza. oh well, what a day.

Hey, I just thought someone should be nice to her tonight..


Live! Life! Love!

LIVE.
there`s no such thing as a favorite word. isn`t it? but in my case, ito ang peyborit ko. why? ewan. because i live. because i am aLIVE. thank God i am existing. (not in the eyes of my grannies..) because for them, i am the bad one. im speaking mostly of what im feeling right now. ako ang masama, tama? wala na akong ginawang mabuti. hindi ako sumusunod. sinusuway ko sila. umuuwi ako ng gabi. parang wala akong kausap. hindi ko na sila nirespeto. bakit ayaw ko magsalita. haaah. WHATEVER!! lagi na lang ako pinapagalitan.. pero syempre, wala akong ginagawa kasi i respect them. and i love them. kanina yung latest away namin kaya eto, blogging like a really mad lady. dito ko binubuhos. haha. its funny, isn`t it? oh well. it`ll pass. basta, right now okay naman ako (i guess) pero hanga pa rin ako sa lolo ko, i know he undersrands what i truly feel. (amin na lang yun.. too private!) see, kahit na nag-walk out ako while eating (first time ko to gawin.) kasi sobrang naririndi na ako sa lola ko. badtrip. badtrip. augh. basta, para akong bata. ginagawa nila akong bata. COME ON! BIG girl na ko. 20 years old. ano ba!? shiiiit! i hate the feeling na ginagawa kang bata ng mga taong nakatatanda. haaaaah. badtrip yun. they can be more hands on pero not in this way. i can protect myself and i know what im doing. i can`t even recall na gumawa ako ng something bad for them to be overprotective. EXAGGE. pero you know what? i thank them for that. haha. kanina lang galit ako, pero now. hindi naman talaga ako galit. narealize ko na i was wrong. was i? haha. i should be thanking them either. kita mo, napapansin pa nila ako kahit na hindi lang ako ang tao dito sa bahay. lagi akong binibigyan ng lolo ko ng pasalubongs. lagi akong sinusundo kahit saan man ako magpunta. lagi akong tinetext pag lagpas ng 9pm. pinagtatanggol ako sa mga kaaway ko nung bata pa ako. pinagdadasal ako ng lola ko. pinapakain ako ng madami and the worst? pinipilit akong uminom ng gatas. nararamdaman ko na they truly cares for me and they love me. i know that they don`t deserve this stupid girl. but now i realized kung bakit LUCKY ang tawag sakin ng tito ko nung bata pa ako.. simply because i will be forever lucky for having 2 strict, devout, caring and thoughtful oldies in my life. i love them soo much.


Let Me Fall

It`s October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year`s come and gone
And nothing`s changed at all
Wasn`t I supposed to be someone
Who can face the things that I`ve been running from...

Let me feel, I don`t care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I`ve become much too good at being invincible
I`m an expert at play it safe, and keep it cool
But I swear this isn`t who I`m meant to be
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...

Let me feel, I don`t care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody
I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody who can face the things that I`ve been running from

Let me feel, I don`t care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived...

It`s October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year`s come and gone
And nothing`s changed at all


17 hours is not a joke!

i know. walang kwenta yung title. now i can say that i`m a TOTAL BUM. sheeeeez. im an addict (oops, dont get me wrong!). O Blues! last friday, i walked. as if im not walking. haha. came from a medical intensive care unit then went home. but before walking my ass off.. i stood near some pirated dvd stalls. yehey! i went home and ate the cream puff i bought in the supermarket. i watched. i watched. i watched. i did not sleeeeeeep. actually, hindi talaga ako inaantok. insomnia strikes again. thank God, im enjoying what im doing. but when i looked outside, shit.. umaga na. almost 7am. i felt that i needed a break. im not yet sleepy but i know na kailangan ko na matulog kasi galit na yung mga mata ko plus the fact that na magagalit yung lolo at lola ko pag nakita nila akong nakababad. haha. 17 hours ako nagwatch ng oth. haaaay. masaya pero im not yet done. first season pa lang yan. shiiit. how bout the 2 more seasons? ..ilang oras pa ang kailangan? its okai. all i need is TIME and im lovin the company of myself.

And for those who say they`re too young, let me just say:
hell you can drive at sixteen,
go to war at eighteen,
you can drink at twenty-one and
retire at sixty-five
so how old do you have to be..
before your love..is real?
(He smiles at his daughter who has tears in her eyes.)


It was only a fear.

I chose this path. Am I leading nowhere? I don`t know. I can`t even tell you whether this life will soon be better.

My stupidity strikes again. well, am I too late for this?

Okai class, what do we have here? Inside my mind, I know there are things that I cannot just explain. Waaaah. As much as I wanted to spill something, there`s this part of me that don`t want to go halves. Some things are meant to be shared but some are not. Exactly. In this blog, i`ve shared not even a half of my life. Because.. I know.. (well, I just know!) that some people might read my entries. Hi Mom!

Here`s the catch. I know life is short (haha!) why am I saying this? ..well, its freakin true. Anything can happen in just a snap of your fingers. Diiiiiing. Just like that.

Sooo. I told you, im becoming paranoid these days. Haha. :-D

I`ve always understood everything except death. I don`t know if I should talk about this thing coz its freaking me out. And please tell me that this is not a premonition.

I am now ready to go. (This might give you goosebumps..) okai, that`s not a joke. Its true. And I will tell you this, I won`t commit suicide so be comfortable with your seats and relax. Relaaaax. I am a good girl, remember? What im trying to say is that I AM READY. Whenever possible. Haha. In God`s time.

I loath people who commit suicide because of some stupid reasons.. I hate them because they didn`t gave importance not only to their parents but to our Creator.

Suicide is an illogical, irrational, unreasonable and foolish act. I couldn`t care less if its written or published in the dictionary. Please bear with me.

How can someone end his/her life? Tsss. Because of failure? Lost love? Poverty? Mistakes? Unfortunate events? Dilemma? Absurd Life? ..that`s BULLSHIT.

Nothing can be solved until its faced. We must be sensible and THINK. That`s the essence of our brain. Use it and you`ll never fail.