mOviN' oN...

I`ve had enough.

No, don`t try to reason with me, this is too much.

I will try not to think of you when I wake up in the
morning and ask myself if somehow you are also awake.
I have my own life to lead and my own life to think of.
No, I won`t even think of you while I`m eating my lunch wondering if you`re doing the same thing, because sooner or later I know you will.

No, never again will I go to the comfort room and lock myself in just to have some privacy to piteously think of you, cry,
sing or do some silly things because of you.
And no, never will I again think of you last when I go to sleep. Sleep is my only rest, so please don`t plague me in my dreams.

I am moving on.

I`ll try to wake up in the morning and smile and think not of why you left but that once you stayed.

And if I feel the need to cry, it will not be for the future that we
could have, not for the regrets that I have nor of the anger that i
feel, but I will cry because of a love that I never was able to
share with the one man I felt it for.
I will cry for the love that was lost, and not for the man who left.

I will give my affections to any man who is need of it, but not my
heart because I still am trying to get it back from you. I will give
him the love that you never wanted, the kiss that I so longed to give you and the words that once was yours. Worthy or not worthy of it, at least he`s here, you`re not.

I`ll try to hold back the tears when I think of you. I`ll
just try to smile.

I am moving on... and hoping that the next thing
would be letting go..


omg! its ALI ALEJANDRO! waaah.. the reason why im loving mojofly more..


The reason why I cut my hair. Haha! Nothing.. really! I know. Tsss.. I used to have a super long black hair since when?! Oh well, can`t remember.. but now.. waaaaah.. one of those few things I regret! Argh! Mindfuck that stupid gay who made my hair miserable. I`ll curse you to death. waaah.. If only I can turn back the hands of time..
aloha, I`m now known as the girl with a boy-cut hair that`s why I`m using a hair grower for some fast relief.. (I even have to take a bath thrice a day just to reapply it!) but my barkada told me ``why so short?!`` then later, they realized that my new hairdo naman ish bagay and I look good in it. (not to mention their thumbs up sign) but hey, I`ll get used to it in the long run. Haha! New image. New life. new me. No, not me.. labooo! I promised to be more responsible now in handling my own commitment.. waaaah. Cutting my hair shorter is a way of saying adios to my not-so-happy past and hello to the make believe and kickin future.

Realization: my hair will eventually grow.. just have to wait! Haha!


went to shang last night.. aheh! watched mr. and mrs. smith with ken, john, pam, jeh, nell, karina and jayvee.. whew! their gadgets..super aliw!
actually, that wasn`t the real piece but before that day, were barely planning na for a drinking marathon at karina`s place since jayvee was the one who made a bet or just simply having a good time together at 9ball or quattro or somewhere there in tomas.
so there.. everythin was doin good naman but yen and papsy wasn't there.. so, we`re super incomplete pa rin.. someone`s missin.. we`re still longing for those two persons who made a big imopact in our lives. waaah! drama! then i received a message from yen.. badtrip ata! and she`s askin bout ken`s problem... waaaaaaa! i dunno what has gotten to her. but i still love you yen! mwah! i missyou dude.. hope you`ll be able to read this..

23/05/05 ..yen saved a message in my draft.. and i was touched by this..

Laurene Zaragoza Lu loves Anna Katrina Mariano Hipolito very much. Thanks for all dude. Youre one of the best things that ever happened in my life. i never stopped thanking God for you. thats why through you, i could say that i still know how to pray -> as related to the quote that i sent you. mwah! your jokebuddy, Yen dearest..

awwww.. labshu yen! sobra!


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THIRTEEN RANDOM THINGS YOU LIKE
13. my barkada
12. tequila and red horse
11. shang, tomas morato, roof deck and timog
10. long conversation
9. music (OPM, alternative, trance, house, old skool…)
8. ice cream + fries
7. laughing out loud with those corny jokes
6. night outs
5. fraps or chillers (*s`mores chiller by Gloria jean`s coffee)
4. corny jokes that would really make my ass laugh..
3. road trips
2. black, white and pink colors
1. simple things in life

TWELVE GREAT MOVIES (in no particular order)
12. Y Tu Mama Tambien
11. the classic
10. Moulin rouge
9. my sassy girl
8. cruel intentions
7. Les Miserables
6. fifty first dates
5. Constantine
4. Matrix trilogy
3. kill bill
2. windstruck
1. Amelie

*sorry, can`t think of any great movie for now..

ELEVEN GOOD BANDS/ARTISTS
11. rivermaya
10. narda
9. bamboo
8. mayonnaise
7. bonnie bailey
6. sandwich
5. imago
4. sugarfree
3. safri-duo
2. mojofly
1. bandido

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU
10. morena, stands 5`5
9. I can handle my money and manage my time
8. I wanna have a conversation with God someday
7. had braces for 4 looong years
6. martyr.
5. super lolo`s girl
4. I love going home late and ima night person.
3. stubborn
2. can`t live without a pen and a paper
1. obsessive compulsive

NINE FRIENDS NUNG KABATAAN
9. aira
8. j.c
7. mac-mac
6. intin
5. anna
4. william
3. karen
2. elmer
1. teepee

EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS
8. tuna mushroom melt
7. kare kare with bagoong
6. s`mores chiller (the best!)
5. white chocolate, caramel cream and rhumba frap
4. siomai with mayonnaise (better try it!)
3. reese`s peanut butter cup
2. combos
1. mcdo`s fries + caramel fudge

SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY (aside from clothes)
7. foot socks
6. body oil
5. lip balm
4. undies
3. glasses
2. perfume ..can`t live without it!
1. earrings ..never without it!

SIX THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY
6. 6 hours of sleep
5. a text from someone
4. a little something from someone
3. coffee plus exhilarating conversation with my friends
2. night outs
1. corny jokes

FIVE SHOWS YOU WATCH
5. Amazing race
4. fear factor
3. mtv cribs
2. hey arnold
1. billiard tournaments

*I don`t time to watch tv anymore

FOUR THINGS THAT IRRITATE YOU
4. crying spoiled brats
3. being late
2. prank jokes
1. rude people

THREE CELEBRITIES YOU ADMIRE
3. Pablo Neruda
2. Johnny Depp
1. Nick Joaquin

TWO PEOPLE ON FRIENDSTER WHOM YOU INVITED FIRST
2. trixie (my cousin)
1. LJ (again., my cousin!)

ONE GREATEST FEAR IN LIFE
1. Failure and the inability to read. Waaaah.. CANNOT!


happy 19th birthday kuya dre..
mwah!


i seek for the meaning of my existence whats the purpose of being here? am i just here for no reasons at all? my mind can`t bear these questions..
im in pain..
im hopeless..
if your purpose is to answer questions whisper them to me gently coz i just don`t wanna exist
i wanna live and love someone....