On impermanence.
Death is freedom and freedom is death. waha! Just thought of it while walking outside. The world outside is impermanent, as are being contained in it. Whether we are beginners or not, we should know that nothing in this world lasts. Definitely death lies at the end of birth. With which, I`ve considered three things.. yesterday, today and tomorrow. Yesterday will never come back; means a part of our lives was gone. Past moments.. something to be remembered or not, may never come back. Tomorrow becomes today and today fades into yesterday. When today become yesterday, nobody in the whole universe can bring it back to the present. True..right? we believe that what we have will last for some time, but no matter where we look in this world, we find nothing that is stable or permanent. If we could just live forever in this chaotic life.. we wouldn`t be too shallow to worry about any aftermath. But no one is immortal. The time of death lies uncertain. I might die soon.. and I wanted an all white celebration for my freedom..

Life doesn`t wait.. and the fact that it can end any moment means we are in a most precarious situation.

I`m not afraid to die. And we shouldn`t be...


Nothin..really! i was just talking to my kuya while listening to bonnie bailey's Ever After over and over again. i don`t know why i love that song. maybe because the lyrics was good. maybe i`m just tired of listening to my alternative and opm collections. maybe there is the wreath, on my ceiling.. just because maybe.. i moved out. lalng.. so, while waiting for my kuya to send me the draft of his poem, (which i can't hardly remember the title..) but i`m sure that i heard it once over the phone a month ago.. haha! the poem was nice.. but he still wouldn`t believe in what i`m sayin..
with that great talent, he should`ve known that i`m proud of him.
I guess i don't have to explain much further.


This is to anyone. I`m writing because I need someone to talk to, someone to open myself to. I need to be held. Yes me. Even I am not made of brick. Although I`m strong, even strong things break down at times.
Whoever reads, I don`t want sympathy or talk, I just want someone to listen.
I sit here laid back, tears are falling from my face. I’m so scared. I feel so alone, so lost, confused, sad… I realize I`m not going to have all the things I love forever.


it`s people that make love blind, not love itself. That`s because when people love, the heart sometimes speaks louder than the mind. And that`s where the will comes in. fall in love but stay focused. Feel but don`t forget to think, too..



*with my new kamBaL* amishu! mwah!


why do i even try?

there is one truth about making decisions.. is it the fact that we're taking a risk?! i would gladly clap my hands and say yes.. to epose feelings is to risk exposing our true self. To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd is to risk loss. And to love is to risk not being loved in return.

to try at all is to risk failure.

I am exposing myself to this reality because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. The man, the woman who risks nothing.. does nothing.. has nothing.. is nothing.

so fly to the moon and shoot for the stars.


gawd..
i'm still wondeRin why i'm happy..