I saw the "Signs"

Okay. This is kinda weird.. i know. Haha! :-D

I was riding a car yesterday (hmm.. saturday to be exact) then.. I got bored after listening to some unknown music. House kasi and the music isn't lovely at all. Btw, I was an hour and a half late for my 300 item comprehensive exam. I know.. Grabe talaga! So when i was about to sleep due to traffic.. "hindi pwede matulog kasi may test and presence of mind dapat!" There. Instead of sleeping, i just asked myself.. I mean, asking my inner self quietly and calmly. haha. Weird things. Those questions that are not worth asking at all. Then, answering it unconsciously.

My first question: Naririnig ba ako ni God? I mean, this is kinda weird because I should not question the morality of the church. But this question in my mind has not been answered for the longest time. Im a Catholic. Im not bad. I believe in God. And I have my faith. So.. Just before passing Maria Clara street in Banaue, i closed my eyes. I prayed and asked for a sign. If God is there and really listening to me, i would see 2 freely flying birds outside my window. This is weird but this made me smile.. Because when i opened my eyes, may bird (isa lang. i was asking for 2..remember?) So i frowned. Then, while watching that little bird in the sky, another bird came (that makes them 2) and joined the bird na tinitignan ko. Yehey!

But that wasn't enough. ang bad ko no? ..I asked for another sign. I told myself that birds are everywhere and you can find them flying (malamang!) anytime.. except sa grounds. So.. That leads to my second sign. If God is really listening to me and my weirdness i would see birds (again) in the grounds. As what i've done earlier (closing my eyes and asking for a sign) Grabe. This really made my day. Because when i opened my eyes.. I saw alot of birds. They are from the sky or maybe from heaven. Parang, just landed. makikita mo pa talagang lumalapag sila sa lupa from the tree or sa sky. then lahat ng madaanan namin na tignan ko, waaaaaaah. ang daming ibon sa grounds. This is amazing. and that freaked me out.

I know He's always up there. Listening. Watching. Guiding. Protecting. All knowing. lahat lahat na. :-D I don't need to ask for signs..

Second question: haha. I know i should get my life back and learn how to breathe. So, the second question.. Hmmm. No, I wouldn't tell you what my question was. akin na lang yun, bro. :-D Then, ofcourse God answered my question. Malabo pero i know he's listening. But i don't know what that meant though the sign was an inch away from what im really asking for. Haaaay. Too much for signs.

In the first place, i should never question the existence of God.


Light up again.

Mygawd. Ang init ng ulo ko these past few days. Hotter than the weather. SUMMER!! i hate the sun.. but i love summer. Summer Roberts. haha. joking. i love Seth. Going back.. (my 75 y/o grandma loves the O.C) and i wanna live in Newport. enough, Katrina.

as in you wouldn't even dare to sit near by my side. and worse, have a conversation with me since i can't even concentrate. Gaaaah. I don't know what's wrong with me or if ive been thinking too much lately. Im a silent type but this time, im becoming louder. i dunno, masyado lang ata nahahalata ng ibang tao na badtrip ako. well, its pretty obvious naman if im not in a good mood. As in kulang na lang magwala.

Then right now, its kinda depressing. wala lang, depressed eh. Can't do anything about it. Im suffering (for a week na!) from major siiipon and low-grade fever. Don't you just hate the feeling? Lord, Help me.

Last Friday, we watched Music and Lyrics.. Mygawd! No offense ha! But i didn't like the movie. (not at all) Kasi, feeling ko nonsense and puro talk lang ginawa ni Drew and Hugh. so.. I slept inside the movie house. Its boring and that's the greatest thing you can do for yourself. haha! But i heart the song they made in the movie and lately, I've been hearing it.

Yesterday, We watched an Epic movie. haaaay. ano ba! Wake up, directors!! :-D Okay, i saw the trailer when i watched Music and Lyrics.. and i thought (just a thought!) that this movie will be fun since Jack Sparrow and Willy Wonka is there. Johnny Depp. woohoo! Grabe. After watching the movie.. GRABE! GRABE talaga! Ang sagwaaaaa! Shiiit. Flat affect faces you've got there. No reactions at all. then, mass (ash wednesday kaya) with the rest of the barkada. :-D i enjoyed the listening. i cursed the movie. I will never watch a non-sense movie again. EVER.

I guess im just PMS-ing.


Sagot ko ang kwento.

grabe. feeling ko ang tagal ko nawala. Feeling lang. kaya kwento na lang muna. aryt?

Nung Tuesday (Feb.13) ..tama ba? So, isang araw bago mag araw ng mga puso. yun naman. ;-D akala mo may ka-date ako? wala no. hindi ko kailangan ng ka-date para maging memorable yung valentines ko. Anyways.. ayun. after ng 7pm class namin, nag-plan sila meh ng inuman. Pero kaming tatlo lang nila donna. PUMPKINS eh. akala ko plain inuman lang. as in inom..lagok..pulutan..kwento. Pero hindi. kakaiba ito. nakakatawa. nakakabobo. nakakaaliw. nakakaiyak. sobrang laughtrip. Hindi pwedeng hindi ka matawa sa mga ikkwento ko. Pero huwag ka mag-alala, hindi ko naman ikkwento ng detalye dito kaya hindi ka matatawa.

Nakita pa nga ni meh yung kaibigan niya. e nung pagdating namin sa katipunan e lasing na yung kaibigan niyang yon. 3 lang din sila. (uso ba ang tatlo?) haha. Pupunta pa daw silang UP fair pero sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, hindi sila matutuloy kasi nga lasing na yung babae. Hindi pa man namin nakakalahati yung 2litro, sobrang lasing na lasing na yung babae (ayoko siyang pangalanan). kaya pabalik-balik siya papuntang kubeta na inaalalayan ng isa pang babaeng lasing. Ayun pa lang, sobrang laughtrip na. Pasensya na kung sobrang pinagtwanan ka namin (e katawa-tawa naman talaga!). Ayun. edi inalagaan lang namin yung mga lasing kasi 2 na silang K.O. at nakakaawa yung isa nilang kaibigan na hindi alam kung paano sila iuuwi. Yung isa taga Commonwealth tapos yung isa sa Cainta. Ginawa namin lahat ng magagawa namin. binuhat para lang makapag-pahinga, kumuha ng yelo at pinunasan ang katawan para magising kahit papaano, humingi ng tubig para makainom, kumuha ng timba para sukahan ng dalawang lasing na babae at tumawag sa mga kakilala. ano ba.. nakakaaliw talaga panuorin ang mga lasing.

Hinayaan muna namin silang makapag-pahinga ng kaunti. Bumalik kami sa mesa ni meh at pinagpatuloy ang naiwang inumin. =s. medyo bumilis ang pag-inom namin. kasi napagod kami kaya kinailangang uminom ng madami. haha! hindi pa man ubos ang isang dalawang litro, pinuntahan kami ni manong at sinabing "Last order na po Ma'am.." GREAT! Kung tutuusin, kami na lang pala ang tao doon. lahat ay umuwi na ng lasing. 3 na lang kaming masayang naghahalakhalakan habang sila'y nagwawalis. Ayun. Edi umorder na kami ng isa pa. Hindi naman namin minadali, bahala sila maghintay!

O, teka.. Alas dose na pala.. HAPPY VALENTINE'S MY DEAR PUMPKINS! sabay yakapan na ng mahigpit. Pero bago pa man mag alas dose, kanina pa rin kami nagkkwentuhan tungkol sa buhay, pamilya, pag-ibig, lahat lahat lahat na. masasayang at malulungkot na kwento. Halo-halo. Ganito naman kaming tatlo eh, ilagay mo kami sa isang lugar ay mabubuhay kami sa kwentuhan. masyado marami lang talagang problemang dumadating at kailangan ng karamay. kailangan namin ang isa't-isa.

Hindi ko na maalala yung pinagkkwentuhan namin ng bigla na lang kaming nag-iiiyak. hagulgol. Pero ang naalala ko lang bigla na lumapit silang tatlo saakin at yumakap ng mahigpit. Haha. ano yun? secret. na-touched lang kasi ako sa kwento ni donna.

Don: yung daddy ko ang unang nagbigay sa akin ng flowers ng Valentine's day. kasi sabi niya, gusto daw niya na siya yung unang guy na magbibigay sa akin ng flowers
Kaye: Awww. I wish meron din akong daddy.
Meh & Don: Awwwww.. *sabay yakap ng mahigpit*

Tapos, lahat na kami umiiyak. wala lang, nakakatawa.

Narinig ata ni manong yung iyakan namin kaya lumapit na naman siya. Tatlo o apat na beses ata siya lumapit sa table namin at nakikiusap na magsasarado na sila dahil 2am na. Kaya yun, umalis na kaming tatlo. Pero bitin eh. Lumipat lang kami ng ibang inuman. Kaunting lakad lang, nandun na kami. sa Cantina lang naman. bukas pa sila eh. kaya dun na lang.

Sumobra ang ingay naming tatlo. kahit na 3 lang kami, parang sampung tao yung nag-uusap, nagkkwentuhan at naghahalakhakan. hahaha. nagalit ata yung mga katabi namin. tapos kumakanta pa kami kahit wala sa tono at iniba yung mga salita. :-D

Hindi ko na alam kung paano kami nakauwi sa bahay nila donna. Pagkagising ko, sobrang sakit ng ulo ko at suka ako ng suka. Ang tagal ko na rin kasing hindi umiinom eh. ayan tuloy. pati si meh, suka rin ng suka. sukahan session nga yun eh. benta. buti na lang nalabas ko lahat. tapos yung damit ko puro suka.. kadiri! Buong suka pa talaga. parang hindi ko nginuya yung mga kinain ko at buo silang lumabas sa bibig ko. hahaha. Buti na lang walang litrato kasi sobrang kahihiyan yun. Tapos gusto namin ni meh kumain ng noodles, kasi sobrang sama talaga ng pakiramdam namin. e walang noodles. sinigang na lang daw tutal may sabaw. Grabe yun. sabaw. sabaw ang utak ko dun. natulog lang kami buong araw. :-D o diba, valentines na valentines wala ako sa bahay at nakikitulog sa ibang bahay.

Tapos galit pa ata sa akin si yen.. kasi may dinner date dapat kami ng Feb.14. Hindi ko kaya tumuloy kasi nga ang sama ng pakiramdam ko at pag umuwi ako sa bahay, malamang hindi na ako papayagan umalis kasi gabi na rin ako nakauwi.. Sorry na. babawi talaga ako. Napahaba ata ang kwento ko. Pasensya na.


-Nicole Krauss


Now, i am writing.

This is funny. I mean, no. not funny (not at all). wala lang. This is sooo High school. Okay, been there. With all the rumors and stuff.. Haha. So, what's up everyone? Salamat ha. Thank you for letting the whole "black" people know how stupid you are. Too bad, you weren't on my contacts. :-D You know what? ..I've had enough. Stop claiming that YOU (do you want me to point my dirty finger sa face mo?) Now what? Is that all you can say? Madaldal ka diba? E bakit hindi mo sabihin lahat? E pano mo nga naman masasabi kung hindi mo naman talaga alam yung tunay na kwento. O may kwento ba talaga? E mukhang ikaw lang ang gumagawa eh.

May God bless you.


Just how naked do we have to get?

--I am a terrible person. Told ya!

Hmmm. Today is not a very nice day. and wtf! I am blogging? I don't have anything to write. Soo. am i giving enough justice? I don't think so. I wanna go out. as in totally OUT. If you know what I mean.

Haaay. I dunno.. I've been lazy like hell (obviously). This blog is boring. I am boring. BORING. Haha! So, what? At least im having fun with Seth and Captain Oats. Tssss.


PLUGging

i am not lucky today. too exhausted to elaborate.

Tune in to magic89.9.


Seriously?

I am still tryin to figure out if this computer can eat me. I almost raaaaaaaaaaawr! HTML is super badtrip. im working here for 3hours. tsktsk. i seriously need a help cos im becoming a psycho. haha. kidding. oh well, i wanna finish this thing (i mean my template..) How can i finish it.. IF i CANNOT NOT NOT?

Im so tired. I wanna share some kwento pa naman. :D okay, ill make a brief one..

SO.. today, i met up with nell, yen and pam. Yun lang. kidding. we hang out. storiess. coffee. blahblah.

REWIIIND.. Okay, let's go back to the scenario, my friend. Nell and I saw Andrei, Willow, Kitel & Metoy in E.rod. :-D Then, saw etads in E.Rod din. enough. so, while walking like a constipated chicken in the small town of Morato, someone from our back: BEEEEP! BEEP! haha. i almost cursed the driver.. but when i saw the plate number., ohmy si earl pala with pacqz and alvin. Tss. Edi yun, i texted him. when we reached the place (starbucks, tomas) ..whereelse? i saw willow, kitel and metoy. sheeesh. Oh, wait.. (i almost forgot na brief nga lang pala!) i saw kuya mark din. Then, when we went up to find a spot, There were 4 girls standing near our table. I know they're gonna ask us several questions since the other girl was holding a video cam. interview. but wait, before the interview happened.. i asked the girl in yellow if her name is maan. Rude ba? haha. Familiar yung face so i asked her na lang.. and yeah, si maan nga! mygawd! She's my cousin's friend. edi yun. tapos na. nell and i went outside to buy kopi bun.. yehey! nyaak! when the guard pushed the glass door, hala! sila Niña, Aris, Tim, Joan and friends. basta madami sila. edi tapos na.. Haaay. we listen to yen's kwentoooo. then, she went down. dumating naman sila gadz, sancho, katha, cookie, mark, vj. Yan brief na yan.. Pagod na ko. The world is tiny.


Haaaaalp!

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