the winning days are gone.


wooohooo! laban pacman! nyahe.

anyway, we went to manaoag last saturday and we lit some candles for our petitions. i felt outrageously fulfilled never mind the 6-hour drive. i can`t explain the satisfaction i got after hearing a mass and praying and continuously thanking God for all the blessings and sufferings ive surpassed for the whole 19years of my existence.

i know that GOD is always up there, though physically he`s not here with us. pero we can feel it naman like a soul and i know na naririnig niya lahat ng prayers natin and i-aanswer niya din yun in time.

God did not create a stone that you cannot carry.. with this rollercoaster life, it is impossible na hindi natin ma-surpass lahat yan because of our ever dearest creator na laging nandiyan para i-guide and saluhin tayo whenever we`re losing control or whenever we`re passing through our lowest point.

GOD is GREAT.. he really IS!

**
damn starbucks, where`s my planner?


LOvE actually is All around.

we often ask ourselves how such a word unites the cosmos. its hard to perceive why people wanted to love and be loved in return.. a new soul at last confided it to me. she told me that love conquers it all. just like what a heart-pounded battle can ease a wounded scratches of the past. can`t you hear the murmurs of your heart? she asked me. no, i cant.. i replied. haha! then you`re nothing at all. why? because you don`t know how to spread the emotions and feelings.

This word will burn the spotlight of the fresh possession and find the glow of darkness that fills her heart with desire and still waiting for the afterburn to surpass it all. drenched in the pillows of morrow and looking back to see how great LOVE really is.

Nothing`s wrong in the world. we are.

you cannot appreciate everything that surrounds you unless you don`t learn how to appreciate the universality of the word. the whirling sound of joys, the tickling laughter abyss the chaos, the song from deep within, the soul that longs for you, the flow of the wine, the glistening stars above the heavens, the words that embraced you, the sound of sweet-senti lullabies, the sun of sorrows within the captivating silence and a glooming peace each morning brings.

pathetic.

love kinda mocks you the way you wanted it. it tears up the presence of sadness within you. love simply shows you everything.. from lighter to darker sides of your realm. let the ocean think about it. split it up and compose a word, love is all we needed. it is indeed the greatest gift.

for the one:
(well, its some sort of a crap.. so, nevermind)
I`ve never been the type to say iloveyou like its no big deal,
because to me, its the biggest deal in the world.
That`s why, when i realized i had fallen in love with you,
it was like a miracle of sorts.
All my caution and reservations flew out
and that first time i gazed into your eyes
because i caught a glimpse of something
that looked a whole lot like forever.
Sometimes I still can`t believe how lucky i was
to find you.
You`re everything i wanted & needed..
but never believed i`d found.

in excess: ill find you somehow.
♥ ♥ ♥


pagod ako.
pero tinatamad pa ko matulog.
susubukan ko kung kaya kong gumawa ng mga salitang may kutsilyo para tamaan ka. tinatawag na ako ng aking kama. nahihimbing na ang mga tao sa paligid ko pero ewan ko ba kung bakit nandito pa rin ako sa tapat mo. marahil gusto ko lang ng makakasama sa gabing mapanglaw. naghahanap ng taong didinig sa mga hinanaing ko. marahil ayoko lang mangulila at baka malunod ako sa aking sariling luha. buti na lang nilikha ang isang tulad mo.. nagpupuno sa lahat ng pagkukulang ng iba. muli na naman sisimulan ang paglalakbay ng mga daliri ko sa mga letrang iyong hinulma. isang compyuter, salamat, tapos na po ang palabas.

still not so quite.


waaah. wait, il just make a small time entry this 14th of january. im so tired! we went to enchanted kingdom. sooo much fun. the magic is not there,though. waha! it would`ve been a blast if we were able to ride em all. i sooo hate the fucking line. we weren`t able to ride on our favorite rides. by the way, im the road manager for some mind draining reasons. waha. can`t help but laugh with those dismal ka-pilahan in rio grande. basta, something happened and i am not a stupid to elaborate it more. chends na yun!

im soooo big time tired.
look, blue moon oh!
there`s a spark in the sky.
maybe its because of the fire crackers in e.k.
..maybe not!

yesterday is friday the 13th. love it.
no signs of bad luck for me.
neither good luck.
and i saw my philo prof in tv last night.
the topic is about friday the 13th. blahblahblah.
he was asked certain questions by someone.

gotta sleep.
buhbye.
♥


DREAMS wont die.
just keep on believing. chende?


i was/am never concerned with what i look. But i am concerned with what i do smell. I`ve never used beauty products or anything which deals with make-ups and the like. I`d rather prefer something with scents. I just love the feeling of being quote and quote ..mabango! by the way, im a self-confessed perfume slash hygiene freak. well, that line kinda sucks. who cares?! with which, I developed allergic rhinitis. in short, dust/ pollution/ cigarette smoke sucks. how many times should i say the word?! cursing takes place. i so hate those stuff.

i am not a celeb so i don`t have any beauty regimen.. Just drink a lot of water (it will surely help!), sleep early (not applicable. waha! well, be off at around 3am., and you`re done. that`s it.), don`t wear make-up (well, i don`t!), avoid stress (who can!?), don`t smoke (yuck! smoking sucks plus it causes countless disease which might lead to coma then death.. So, better stop it or else you`ll miss half of your life. As they often advertise, cigarette smoking is dangerous to your health. Yea! it is.

Okay, above tips should be completely deleted by you, of course. Pfft. clap. clap. clap. Mind you, the impulsive writer is not a beauty guru. Hence, she is just an artificial artificial editor-in-chief. dream on kaye!

Going back, i surely cannot live our house without a bottle or two of eau de toilette. i told you, i am a sucker. haha! My friends know me for that. I just want to look good and feel good.

I love spraying or putting something on my body. Not on my face because im sorta allergic to cosmetics and stuff. i just apply some make-up if there is a special occasion or whatever. blah. blah. blah. but expect an upcoming zit tomorrow. i hate it.

Here are some of the things or products i apply on my body, with due respect, your honor.

The list thus follows:

1. The Body shop`s melonseeds body oil - my favourite body oil. i liked it because of its smell and it really does help you shine, feel good and smell good. You can apply it elsewhere because it is indeed, pocket-y!
2. Nivea`s whipped lotion - Just like an ordinary lotion. it leaves a soothing effect.
3. Chapstick - Evry girl/man should have this. For some unexplainable reasons. This ois the only thing that i apply in my lips. You can bring it anywhere. Dry, chapped lips is a NO-NO if you have this weapon. i love thee.
4. The Body shop`s born lippy last (strawberry) - ahah! i used to like it. but survey says that it darkens thy lips. ditched this for number 4. chende?
5. Dolce and Gabanna Light Blue - One of my favourite scents ever. it is sooo feminine. (which is not so me!) blech. Well, it really smells good it lasts longer. swooosh..im smelling it right now. i attest that we, girls should smell this way for our R.
6. Elizabeth Arden`s Green Tea - i looove the smell. My second favourite. i just love the smell of green tea. when i wear this scent, people often asks me what scent am i wearing.
7. Ysa Botanica Papaya soap - Now, the secret has been known. Use it in your face, not in your bod.. arite?
8. Neutrogena`s Deep Clean cleansing foam - Hmmm.. alright, it cleanses your face.. and then?!
9. Benzoyl Peroxide a.k.a Panoxyl - 0.5% does it better. Reapply.. then reapply.. reapply.. reapply.. just continue it. Patience is a virtue, eh? No reapplication, no regeneration. Adieu pimples.
10. J. Lo - You better ditch this!
11. GAP Dream - just dream.. and you`ll eventually smell it. Kidding aside, it smells good too. my cousin first loved it, must I confess that I love thee.
12. DKNY`s Be Delicious - I also love the scent. waaah. a thumbs up again. i also loive the package.. its kinda unique and it smells so citrus-y!
13. Bvlgari Extreme - I told you, i do have a collection of perfumes/ eau de toilette. This scent is for men.. really! but i don`t know why i sooo love this. Maybe i have a masculine touch. Ironically, I use this scent as much as D&G light blue does. its simple adorable and as if you`d fall inlove with a man who wears this scent. soo clean.
14. Petroleum Jelly - It is a necessiy for it has many uses: soften dry skin, soothes chapped lips and skins, removes make-ups and for minor burns.
15. pH 5.5 - Do your douching girl. Dooderlein bacilli on the go.
16. Placenta cream - oh, i cannot afford. i don`t need this anymore. Just contact Dra. Sembrano for further details. it is used topically by r.k. girls. well, not me. For a shiny and flawless face in the planet.
17. Rexona - it won`t let you down. Need i say more?
18. Beauty bar`s bees wax - A hand moisturizer perfect for rough-surfaced palms. it can work on dry lips too.
19. Davidoff`s Cool Water for women - Just a mainstream perfume. hmmm.. the scent is cool, eh?
20. GAP White - Whatta nice airfreshener.
21. Estee Lauder`s Pleasures - Wherefore art thou? Inhale then you`ll know what you`ve been looking for.. Exhale and you lost the smell. My tita`s favorite perfume, so was I --(but that was before! uhmm..like 4years ago?!)
22. Neutrogena`s body oil - It leaves your skin soft, shiny, flawless and oh, so perfect.
23. Jergen`s Ultrahealing lotion - hear that?! heal what?! (whoa! really? it does?) ..i don`t think so!
24. Dermovate NN - For some skin whatever. It is useful, though. An anti-inflammatory. capice?!
25. Elizabeth Arden`s oh-i-cannot-remember-thy-name - identity please. it is also a good scent which i cannot promote and ask in the perfume stalls for some idolatry reasons.
26. Victoria`s Secret`s Love spell and secret crush - too many flavors. define love and crush.. that`s what Victoria is.
27. Maybelline`s concealer - Apply it theoretically. conceal thy bulky eyebags.
28. Stresstabs - deal with it.
29. Excedrin 500mg - if migraine occurs, consult this drug and pain shall be relieved.
30. Ralph Lauren`s Glamorous - A not-so perfume. I like R.L Romance (especially for men!) better than this.
31. Bench`s Hand Sanitizer in Strawberry flavor - clean thy hands. kills bacteria in no time.

Adieu. so much for health/beauty and lastly perfume products.. Remember: Don`t splurge that much. Simplicity.


PRESENTING: my first stupid entry for 2006.

romeo+juliet. i badly wanna watch that play by yan yuzon and i-forgot-her-name girl. basta, she`s an atenean too, like yael and yan. oh, i forgot, she`s there in spongecola`s music video -gemini. they`re practicing for the play by that time when they shoot gemini. soo, it took them how many months to prepare for the play?! aheh.

2005 has been a blast. well, thanks to alot of special people who made my life worth living. nyak! (soooo dami!) ..the list goes on..
OUR CREATOR, ever-loving family, blizzards, my barkada, my angel, highschool barkada, college friends, friends, friends and even more friends, strangers, readers of this blog(?), fellow bloggers, starbucks tomas` baristas, 9ball setters and some unimportant people.

im out.
♥