It was only a fear.

I chose this path. Am I leading nowhere? I don`t know. I can`t even tell you whether this life will soon be better.

My stupidity strikes again. well, am I too late for this?

Okai class, what do we have here? Inside my mind, I know there are things that I cannot just explain. Waaaah. As much as I wanted to spill something, there`s this part of me that don`t want to go halves. Some things are meant to be shared but some are not. Exactly. In this blog, i`ve shared not even a half of my life. Because.. I know.. (well, I just know!) that some people might read my entries. Hi Mom!

Here`s the catch. I know life is short (haha!) why am I saying this? ..well, its freakin true. Anything can happen in just a snap of your fingers. Diiiiiing. Just like that.

Sooo. I told you, im becoming paranoid these days. Haha. :-D

I`ve always understood everything except death. I don`t know if I should talk about this thing coz its freaking me out. And please tell me that this is not a premonition.

I am now ready to go. (This might give you goosebumps..) okai, that`s not a joke. Its true. And I will tell you this, I won`t commit suicide so be comfortable with your seats and relax. Relaaaax. I am a good girl, remember? What im trying to say is that I AM READY. Whenever possible. Haha. In God`s time.

I loath people who commit suicide because of some stupid reasons.. I hate them because they didn`t gave importance not only to their parents but to our Creator.

Suicide is an illogical, irrational, unreasonable and foolish act. I couldn`t care less if its written or published in the dictionary. Please bear with me.

How can someone end his/her life? Tsss. Because of failure? Lost love? Poverty? Mistakes? Unfortunate events? Dilemma? Absurd Life? ..that`s BULLSHIT.

Nothing can be solved until its faced. We must be sensible and THINK. That`s the essence of our brain. Use it and you`ll never fail.