she`s a self-confessed lolo`s girl..

when my mom left me for my dad`s burial in new york, my life has changed. im writing this not for other people which i know could somehow read my entry, not even for my mom but for myself. i`ve never been the type of showing my deep emotions to other people. i grew up like this.. discreet. mysterious. independent. tired of finding real happiness. and living in my world of boredom. inshort, embracing my own silence (hence, the title of my journal which somehow depicts my very own personality). amen.

i thank God for giving me the greatest lolo in the whole wide universe. i know this sounds radical that i can get so pasaway in our house yet my lolo would always run after me and chase all those people who are involved. i know he understands me. he can feel what i feel and he knows how i`ve tried pretend to be okay when im actually not. i should have known that he would not leave me whatever might happen to me, regardless of how many times i disobeyed him.

he is the perfect father figure for me. he would always make sure that everything is fine. he would always drop me off to school and fetch me wherever my feet takes me. he would always check my money if its enough to buy food or necessary things i want. he would even look for ate wena to ask for my breakfast, lunch and dinner. drinking milk is the only thing i disobeyed. every night, may pasalubong. he would always bring my favorite mamon, chocolate marble & hopia from goldilocks, pan de coco, pianono, chips delight, apples and pears, basta.. anything that he knew na i would love to eat.

my lolo is half spanish. he even look like manuel quezon. he`s sooo gwapo in his early years but regardless of his age, he still looks a spanish mestizo. well, he`s not mestizo pala. haha! moreno. that`s why i have a penchant for moreno.

i can`t imagine living my life without Him (insert my lolo`s name here). my prayers always prioritizes my family`s health.. and the next would be.. long life for them since my lolo is suffering from tuberculosis. i wish masuklian ko lahat ng kabutihan na ipinakita niya sa akin. and don`t worry, papalakihin ko ang mga magiging anak ko tulad ng pagpapalaki sakin ng lolo ko. i will be forever thankful for having someone like my lolo in my life. God is good.

i bet, you won`t find anyone na tulad ng lolo ko.. i wish makahanap ako ng tulad niya whom i can spend the rest of my life with.

ilove my lolo soooo much.