i never felt weaker.

last monday, a very happy lil boy came after me. he was like soo giddy and jumping, playing and fooling around with us. when i sat down, i saw a mirror of an obviously normal and happy kid. oh well, pretending to be normal.

i asked him: what`s your name?
little boy: raymart po
me: how old are you?
raymart: thixth (come on, he`s just a kid and it is usual for them to be bulol)
me: bakit ka nandito sa hospital?
raymart: uuwi na nga kami bukas eh.
me: ahhh.. ano bang sakit mo?
raymart: brain abscess
me: talaga? (sabay walk out..)

i cried. not because i pity the child but because i can see his eagerness to live and be happy. he`s just a child and i know that he wanted to feel what life has stored for him. its some sort of `he was being deprived` of being a child.

tears kept on flowing and i can`t stop it.. i left holding his hands in the air and went inside the wash room to at least wipe it. i don`t want him to see me crying. i want him to be full of happiness, hopes and dreams. for kids, crying is a sign of weakness. i wanted him to be strong and face this challenge.

FYI: A brain abscess is a mass of immune cells, pus, and other material that can occur when the brain is infected by bacteria or fungus. and he was confined at the hospital for 3months already. the reason why he wasn`t home yet was because of his illness and second, their hospital bill.

i wanted to do something. as much as possible, i want him to be closer to God. but the next day, he already left the hospital and i haven`t seen his angelic face from then on.