what this girl wants.

I`ve been wanting to do this. but my mom doesn`t want me to leave our house. I really want to be independent. I wanna live alone. I wanna have a little space on my own. Stand on my foot. Cook. Wash the dishes and even my clothes. pay my bills (as if I already have a job!). travel alone. Clean the house. . and all the etceteras came in.

Its not that I don`t know how to cook or wash the dishes/clothes on my own. of course, I know how to do those stuff listed above. I just wanna be alone. Gusto ko ma-experience yung tumira mag-isa. for your information, I am challenged to live freely and that`s one of my dreams. Well, not actually na titira far away from where I am right now. Hindi rin because gusto ko silang ma-miss or mamiss ako. but because I want my INDEPENDENCE. Like duh?! Im already 19.. I think im in the right age already.

Okay, may point yung mom ko about that. Iba na daw ang kabataan nowadays.. yeah right., pero, im not one of them. I know the pros and cons of what im doing. im in the right path.. I guess. Yeah, I love night outs.. but not the PARTY HARD thingy. I go out for movies or chillin with my barkada, but not gimmicks. Aryt? Before, I must admit that im into those stuff. But now, hindi na. I don`t settle for mediocrity. of course, I have my mother`s trust. I know that fact. But I can`t just fully understand why she doesn`t want me to stand on my own. well, these are life experiences. Does mothers always knows whats the best for their children? Maybe. Siguro. Marahil. I don`t know. because I am not a mother yet. In time, I would be able to understand why she`s super duper strict (to the nth power) when it comes to me.

When I asked her about it, I got mad at her because a permission was not granted. My mom treats me like a baby and I hate that. I wanted her to treat me like a woman. I kept on telling her that I want my independence. But she doesn`t seem to understand what freedom is.