My days of anonymity are long passed. Dreadful days at the hospital and fuckin lectures and reports. Argh! I`m starting to love pharma or worse hate it. haha! Labo! I dunno what`s happening to me. coz I`ve seen 2 minor operations inside the surgery room (no, not operating room) ..it is way different. Then parang tumaas yung blood sa head ko after the first minor operation or the incision of the stoma-like boil! I can`t resist it. can`t even look at the procedures done by the doctor. Parang I was stabbed twice or even thrice. Maybe because the patient wasn`t injected with anesthesia. So, sumuper cry siya inside with fingers crackling down. I felt her pain. The doctor told us that twas super sakit daw talaga kaya and he didn`t want to put an anesthesia coz the patient might depend on it. some kinda drug abuse daw. so, I went out and just found out that super lamig sweats has been running down my forehead. I feel so cold inside. Feel numb and helpless. Then I put 2 candies down my mouth to atleast subjugate myself. then palamig muna sa labas coz I might vomit inside. Argh! A side of me wants to drift while a part of me wants to stand straight. Then super laugh sila patrick, casey and pao because they saw me with a super anemic face and as in my lips has turned white daw (as if im fainting!). Harhar! loser me! This Cannot be! Argh!
`its all in the mind pare` ..kaya yan! Major operations yet to come. tadaaa!